Monday, August 11, 2014

A story written long ago.

Her soul called out to me from across the room. And I responded simply by walking over. An explanation was never needed to tell us why we belonged to this thing that we were creating…in silence and in sound. We knew each other well, yet never had our eyes, voices or words met in this lifetime. This was all about another time.  A piece of home in all the chaos. A story written long ago.

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Inner Monologues and One-Sided Conversations

Sometimes there isn't a dialogue. There's an inner monologue with two voices. A relationship dynamic you are building with yourself. A one-sided conversation that will never be reciprocated. Or would be volleyed in an entirely different way.

Sometimes the silence is so deafening that it feels safer to make up the other side. To fill in the silence with words you wish were said or fear will be said…but the truth is that until they are said this is all wasted mental energy.

Try not to react to what isn't there.

That's my advice to me. And you, if you want it.

Thursday, July 31, 2014

7 Days of Gratitude.

I was challenged to write 3 things I am grateful for for 7 days and to tag 3 people every day to do the same. So, here's to 7 days of focusing on the good!

Day 7/7
Today I am grateful for:
1. The times where I see the truth, tell it to myself, and then I actually listen to it. It's too easy to get caught up in the stories we tell ourselves. Sometimes they just aren't true and there is power in knowing that.
2. The freedom I feel when I'm acting 12, not 36.
3. The people who take the time to really see me and be present with me. I notice. 

Day 6/7
Today I am grateful for:
1. Times that I surprise myself. Like yesterday when I put this tattoo on my arm.
2. Any time pain translates into strength. 
3. Dean, who makes me laugh every single day and helps me to find true meaning, self acceptance, and motivation.

Day 5/7
Today I am grateful for:
1. Carrie Fazio for pushing me to take a chance on myself.
2. Ingrid Michaelson…for, well, everything she does with her voice. Concert tonight!!
3. Vicki, Phyl, my parents, my brother (today) and all the people who keep my house filled with conversation and love (everyday). 

Day 4/7
Today I am grateful for:
1. Saying yes spontaneously. And for the people who push me to do things that are outside of my comfort zone. (Yes, there are things out of my comfort zone!)
2. The people who make me feel welcome and at home.
3. Erin for supporting me no matter what. And I can be a difficult one to support.

Day 3/7
Today I am grateful for:
1. Songs lyrics that are so powerful that they feel like they are pouring out of you rather than being heard. Reminds me of how connected we all are.
2. Road trips. There's something about the flow between conversation, music, and silence that builds an intimacy that I cherish.
3. Raw, honest conversation and the people brave enough to have it. 

Day 2/7
Today I am grateful for:
1. The moment that I remember to take a deep breath and fill my lungs with air. Always brings me back to being a kid. And feels so incredibly good.
2. Jaiden's laughter, bravery, charm. Neiko's cuddles and playful smiles. 7 days to take them in.
3. Serenity. I found myself the day she was born and I'm a better version of myself every time she is near me.

Day 1/7
Today I am grateful for:
1. Feeling everything. The cold water, the rocky bottom of the lake, the warmth of the sun. I'm alive and I love it.
2. My family and the amazing people who helped us to make this happen.
3. Down time.

Monday, July 28, 2014


Together we burned so hard we freed all the stars from their anchors in the sky. For everything there is a time to move on.

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

More than you.

Do you remember the way my head would fill with words while the sun freckled my shoulders and silence stretched between you and I?
The way thoughts fell from my fingers – flowing from a gentle tap to a feverish rage?
How I told the truth?
Saw beauty in more than just you?

Monday, February 3, 2014

More than words.

I have always tried to get to know people by reading the books they love.

Today I realized that maybe I'm doing a lot more than getting to know them.

When I choose to flip through a shared set of pages with someone, I am opening up an entirely new frame of reference with them. An understanding. A different way of looking at the world.

The experience and journey we take through the pages of books alters our way of thinking - even if only temporarily. It opens up new realities and exposes us to new personality types. It forces us to react to things that are happening in the world outside of us. And those reactions get inside of us. It deepens our mental connection with humanity. It paints a new picture of places we have seen and a detailed visual of places we have not. And through all of that it changes the way the world looks. It creates a filter to see everything through.

I feel blessed to share that connection with people in my life.