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The knowing.

You settled into my dream. 
Stared me from my sleep. And told me it was time for a birth. 
I asked if I could stay by your side. 
A tender “no” was pushed from your lips.
I stood to leave while the others danced around me.
Your fear and my rejection walked me out of that dream.

That morning, grief was born.
It poured from my body for 7 straight days.

You ghosted my life with coffee, clowns, and diamonds - 
A knowing that slipped between us.
Then a person of your making began to stain my thoughts.
He received the words I couldn’t say to you.
And we connected over the beauty and pain you left behind.

We both miss your song.

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So, now I'll be thinking about the seeds I want to plant in my own life for the next season. What do I want to harvest when the time for growth has come to an end and it's time to store my energy up for the next natural transition?

Sedum

Press the seed of this story just inside my lips
I will nurture it with warm breath and a low hum
Let it dance from the tip to the cup of this tongue
Germinating
Articulating
Then tuck it safe inside my cheek for later
When it's time to swallow it whole