Today I did it.
Every morning I drive past a garden supply store on my way to work. And every morning I look at the rooster statue standing more than 5' tall in front of it and think, "I want a picture of him."
And then I drive by.
I'm either too late for work. Or just not in the mood. Or it's raining. Or I've got other things on my mind. In other words I'm full of excuses. I have spent more time reasoning myself out of taking that picture than it would have taken to just pull over and snap it.
What changed today? The Details in the Fabric.
It was recommended that I listen to this Jason Mraz song and pay attention to the lyrics. So, I did...and in listening I decided to stop paralyzing myself. To stop driving by just because I'm preoccupied or feeling lost.
"Calm Down. Deep Breaths. And get yourself dressed. Instead of running around and pulling all of your threads. And breaking yourself up."
And that's what I need to do. The way I've been operating for the last week hasn't gotten me anywhere except for behind...and broken up with myself.
I'm in a huge holding pattern. Circling over decisions in a large figure eight, the infinity symbol - being disillusioned by the notion that I might have more time and chances than I actually do. Thinking that if I just keep driving by that rooster will still be there. That life won't pass me by.
But it's not true. I have to move forward every day. Despite not knowing where I'm headed or what's to come, forward is still the answer.
Tomorrow's aren't guaranteed and if I start thinking that they are, I'll try to remind myself that today is already yesterday's tomorrow...and that they go too quickly.
So today with the rooster staring me down. I took advantage of the present moment. I snapped the shot. And in that moment I was present. And I got what I wanted. And I moved forward.
"And everything will be fine."
(You'll see this big guy also featured on www.bepurdy365.blogspot.com later in the day.)
Every morning I drive past a garden supply store on my way to work. And every morning I look at the rooster statue standing more than 5' tall in front of it and think, "I want a picture of him."
And then I drive by.
I'm either too late for work. Or just not in the mood. Or it's raining. Or I've got other things on my mind. In other words I'm full of excuses. I have spent more time reasoning myself out of taking that picture than it would have taken to just pull over and snap it.
What changed today? The Details in the Fabric.
It was recommended that I listen to this Jason Mraz song and pay attention to the lyrics. So, I did...and in listening I decided to stop paralyzing myself. To stop driving by just because I'm preoccupied or feeling lost.
"Calm Down. Deep Breaths. And get yourself dressed. Instead of running around and pulling all of your threads. And breaking yourself up."
And that's what I need to do. The way I've been operating for the last week hasn't gotten me anywhere except for behind...and broken up with myself.
I'm in a huge holding pattern. Circling over decisions in a large figure eight, the infinity symbol - being disillusioned by the notion that I might have more time and chances than I actually do. Thinking that if I just keep driving by that rooster will still be there. That life won't pass me by.
But it's not true. I have to move forward every day. Despite not knowing where I'm headed or what's to come, forward is still the answer.
Tomorrow's aren't guaranteed and if I start thinking that they are, I'll try to remind myself that today is already yesterday's tomorrow...and that they go too quickly.
So today with the rooster staring me down. I took advantage of the present moment. I snapped the shot. And in that moment I was present. And I got what I wanted. And I moved forward.
"And everything will be fine."
(You'll see this big guy also featured on www.bepurdy365.blogspot.com later in the day.)
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