Firing up the Canon

A small lilac bush sits at back right corner of my lot. Some time last year the tree stopped blooming and the life inside of it faded. Early this April, however, I came into the backyard to find the bush bursting with life. Vibrant orange and pale yellow flowers trailed over the branches. Though it had stopped thriving as what it once was - the bush lent its strength and structure to an incoming vine - the beautiful blossoms and sweet, sweet fragrance of the honey suckle. A month or so passed and as the honey suckle faded back to a subtle green, a morning glory vine eased its way in and began the process of showing its life over the branches. Mornings burst over the bush in a blueish lavender. All uninterrupted by, but supported by the life below. I've been observing this transition of life for months. So many lives blossoming then receding over the same set of branches. The ease of exchange. The way it can almost happen before your eyes without you even noticing. The way ...

For every place you cannot be - I'll take you with me in pictures.

The things that grow the fastest don’t always produce the best results. One thing that playing in my garden has made me aware of is the parallel that can be drawn between all forms of life. At the beginning of my planting experience I had a crop of kale and a crop of spinach that eagerly rose from the soil before anything else. I thought for sure I’d be harvesting plenty from those two crops. I doted on them, bragged on their successes and… just as my other plants were beginning their growth… I ended up having to dump these early risers in the composter. They went to seed too fast and stayed small. Today I was at lunch with a close friend of mine and through conversation I was able to see how this notion can too be true of relationships. Often things that seem overly fiery at first erupt prematurely and fade away before they ever reach the level of maturity that make them their very best. It’s the things that take a little more work at the beginning that have the chance to grow comp...

A losing contest entry. A winning lifetime. This entry because I miss her, her voice, her visits, her sayings - her life. Oh, Honey “What do you know that’s new,” my great-grandmother, known affectionately as Honey, inquired as I entered the nursing home for the second night that week. The truth was, not much was “new” in my life since the last time I had seen her. Yet, “nothing” didn’t seem to be an adequate answer. Certainly not the answer to give a 93 year old woman living in a cold cell with ails and hours of loneliness. After all, here in front of me was a woman living with the third stranger she’d have for a roommate; the third stranger, after decades in a house with her daughter, granddaughter, grandson, and eventually even her great-granddaughter. The third stranger, when family is what she needed most. So, in that moment I became grown-up and put her reality before mine. I told Honey the details of my day, which contrary to how I felt, proved interesting to her. Later...

I haven't been over here to write in a while, but that doesn't mean I'm not writing. If you want to see what I've been up to lately - come visit me at my garden blog . I'll be back here soon. :)

As many songs as she posts are as many songs as I will post. Amazing Chelsea. Keep singing. If you haven't listened to her, check out her other songs.

I've been quiet on this front, but here's why. I've been putting a little bit more blogging effort into my gardening blog . My seedlings are planted :) I'm very excited!

What's the best way to deliver Easter Baskets? Hopping of course. It's a little tiring, but what's good for bunny is good for me.

I'm working on building my first garden in 6 years! First step. Dig. Dig. Dig. See my progress !

Chelsea being amazing once again. Enjoy, "The Girl"!

Had a great weekend so far. Wanted to share some of the highlights and reflections. Hope you are all enjoying the weather as much as I am. It's Us! Self Reflection The Rearview Road The House

I can write about the lessons I have learned on any given number of things, but there one lesson I struggle to learn no matter how many times I gain experience with it. NERVES. I do not know how to tell myself rationally that there is a reason to remain calm once I start getting nervous and escalating in a situation. The pain hardly ever parallels the reality. I cause myself so much grief. So, in the words of a license plate I failed to take a picture of on the highway yesterday – “I turn 2 U.” How do you remind yourself not to “sweat the small stuff?”

Saw this young lady play her guitar and sing for more than 2 hours last night. Amazing talent. Check out her youtube page for more songs :) And keep checking it - I've put in a long list of requests. No pressure, Chelsea. (Not my homework, not my problem. Not now. Not never.) PLAY ME SONGS.

An ironic, but not surprising thing happened in the last 24 hours. I utilized the last name of an old friend on an ad I was writing and somehow within the same 12 hours (after not having spoken in months) her named popped up in my facebook friend requests. Yeah, so? I know I like to drag meaning out of things, but there is a reason for that – I usually find some. It all goes into the theory that you get more of what you focus on. I had thought about my friend – wrote down her name…and then an actual connection was made. No force of hand, no pursuit, it just came. I think this is an important thing to consider. We get more of what we put our focus and energy on. So if we focus on positive – we find more positive. We focus on negative – we find more negative. A month ago I was struggling. I was disappointed in the way things were unraveling with a few of my friends and I put so much focus on it that I didn’t realize I was passing up plenty of hours that I could have been focusing o...

It must be the season for new cup releases. Einstein's is doing something pretty fun with their cup. It's a "flip the lip" contest. After you are done drinking..you unroll the top of the cup (not without effort) and reveal your winnings - or not. I lost, so I don't know what the winner cup says; however, I do think it's a fun concept. So unroll with me. The vanilla hazelnut coffee there is quite delish.

Let's play a game, shall we? We took our first playground walk today in the sunshine and luckily I had my camera. One street south of my house we had a little photo adventure. Now, I want you to be a part of it. What do you see on these front porches that you might not find in your own neighborhoods? Enjoy :)

The new caribou coffee cup rocks. If you've been following my blog at all you probably know that I love my hot morning beverages to come complete with little words of inspiration. The Caribou Coffee™ cup is now full of them. Here's what I took in with my caffeine today: *Be the first to enter and the last to leave the dance floor. *Indulge in chocolate therapy. *Plant lots of trees. *Learn to say thank you in ten languages. *Dare to Adventure. *Be the ruler of your own life. *Savor every sip. *Marshmallows have no nutritional value, and that's ok. *Step 1: Rake Leaves. Step 2: Jump. * You'll only be your current age once. *Only look back if it makes you smile. *Donate Blood. You have Plenty. *Dance in the rain. *Lighten up. *Get your hands dirty. *Don't wait for New Year's to make a resolution. *Sing out loud. *Be the first to apologize. *Spend time with your kids, tomorrow they're a day older. *Give your change to charity. *Spin the globe then pack your ba...

I haven't done one of these posts in a while, but today I got a little inspiration from the road and I'm posting. Life is a constant stream of events and those events come with choices. The biggest choice being the one dealing with attitude. Some things are easy. They go well, lift you ten feet off the ground emotionally and you go through the moment naturally elated. Other things are a bit more complex. Things don't go the way you wanted them to, they present a set of challenges, or flat out slap you across the face with a completely unexpected/unwanted outcome. Andeven at these times, though less natural, a positive attitude is still possible. I've been listening to Randy Pausch's book about his Last Lecture and in it he repeats, " Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted." It's true and representative of a larger notion. There is always a positive to be found. It just requires training your brain to find it - to look...

Here's the happy clan in the morning. All cozy, snuggled in, bark and whine free for just a couple hours :) LUKAS - PUKAS LEIA GODIVA - DIVA BAILEI

I have a repeating dream. The minute details are different each time, but the basic premise is the same. I’m always enrolled in college. Often I miss one or two classes entirely for a large portion of the semester. In most versions of the dream I walk onto campus and have no idea what my schedule is. Once I look at it I realize that we are halfway through the semester and I haven’t even showed up for one class. I look at syllabuses and see that I’ve missed tests and information. Sometimes I walk into the class for the first time on the day of a test. It's always a scramble, depressing and totally overwhelming. At some point every time I have this dream I realize I have to drop out and start over and that I wasted tons of money. Here's what I do know: with me, until I have resolution to my dreams they continue to play out over and over again.. I wonder what this one means. ------------------------------------------- A sidenote on dreams: Check out addressedtoanonymous.co...

You could define the way you feel about yourself by someone else's opinion of you - but why would you? When we feel personally attacked in life we have a tendency to forget about human tendencies. Often times people are reacting to us out of emotion that isn't fully attributed to us. Little pieces of bad days, past hurts, assumptions, and defenses work their way into every situation and are then projected onto current realities. Because of this we are often attributed qualities or failures that aren't really our own. If we change how we feel about ourselves based on every last person's momentary judgments, we are doing ourselves, our esteem, and our self identity a great injustice. Only you know who you are and what your intentions are. There are times that you do something forseeing one outcome and getting a completely different one. Other times we completely overlook at potential negative side effect. That is the course of life. Things don't always go as expected...

I need inspired change. It’s getting to that point in the winter where I want to crawl out of the dark and cozy hole that I’ve dug myself into, but my body hasn’t fully adopted the potential change. I have good intention and desire to open the world back up to myself, I just haven’t figured out how to emerge – at least not in a healthy way. I’ve figured out how to go out to eat…but unfortunately that is just making the needed change a bit more difficult as I feel like I’m packing on the pounds and making any fitness and financial goals even bigger challenges. So I’ve decided I need to just make a first step - any first step. Maybe it’s going to the gym tonight. Maybe it’s enrolling for a class. I keep talking about things I want to explore and do and not doing them…and that is making for long periods of time with no change. I’m giving myself till five p.m. to figure out where I want to start. Where I’m going to take my first step. One thing I do know – it will not be into a res...

I want to scoop up cups of sunshine and pour them over my skin, splash them across my cheeks. I want to drink down the yellow and the orange - feel it swell in my joints, course my veins, strengthen my lungs. I want to blink away the bright of the day and sleep the slumber of summer, sticky with sweat and deep muscular exhaustion.

When I was younger I used Lent to make sacrifices of a personal nature, but ones that didn’t really have any true affect on me. I’d give up pop or make a promise not to gripe about something, but to be honest I never really felt a connection to my sacrifice. Last year I modified my thinking during lent and tried to incorporate elements into my 40 days that would not only benefit me, but others as well. Example. I gave up online shopping with one exception. If I found something I just “HAD” to purchase I promised myself that I’d give 5 items to goodwill. At the end of the Lent season I was really doing an exact tally, but I do know that six boxes of my things got delivered to the goodwill store near my house and I felt good about what the 40 days had added up to. This year I’m going to continue to collect things around my home to give to goodwill, but I’m putting a slightly different spin on Lent for myself. I’m going to dedicate the next 40 days to clearing out space in my life in ...

I’m up at all hours thinking. Contemplating life. Finding it takes me an extra 15 minutes to fall back to sleep once I’m awake, because some things are left unsettled in my mind. During these hours I find myself circling around the concept of perception and attitude. I’m realizing that we have the ability to paint our individual realities however it is we wish to see them. We can feel in control, victimized, opportunistic, burned, fortunate or deflated – and I believe that the perspective we have is an absolute choice. Things happen to all of us. Situations unfold and we react. Some things are solidly sad and unfortunate, but some of us choose to do positive and motivating things with them – and some of us choose the play the role of the affected. We have the absolute ability render ourselves powerless over what has “happened to us”. We can, if we want, forget to take responsibility for the role we play in our outcomes. I’ve been playing both sides of this coin in some regards, but I ...